It still feels like a gut punch, but I guess I have grown to be more numb to its pain. I guess, all I have is to be pissed off at myself and be angry at myself for marrying someone, who valued saving their tails more than whom they marry.
I definitely can't say that I am happy. I can definitely think that I can start to move towards a goal. A better a career and a better healthy life. Lets see how these things wind up for me!